cold

dint really want to wake myself up this morning. it is so cozy in my bed. the weather is perfect, though a little cold. i like it ver much anywayz. well in the afternoon i cooked porrige for my friend who is sick to eat. as we were chit chatting he told me something that caught my attention. i came to realise that i wasnt the only one who broke the glass that the owner has provided. he told me that his brother has already broken a plate and a glass. they were seriously too fragile. the glass especially! just toppled over on the table, pieces has it become. i found myself so glad that i have only broken a glass and not a plate, but i have a wierd feeling telling me that i have to be careful of the plates or i could most probably end up like my friend's brother. and what happened next is quite predictable...In the late evening, i was thinking of grilling a hoki fish for dinner, so i took out a plate and before putting into the oven i took a look at the bottom of the plate where it is written-"microwave,dishwasher and conventional oven safe" .great i thought. walked away leaving my fish to be cooked...10mins past...opened the oven to have a look at the fish and found... a broken plate! WOW amazing! i have been so careful in handling the plates and now it broke itself without even needing me to touch it. great! now i have the same amount of things broken as my friend's brother. i dun even noe how am i going to compensate them...zzzZ.
one of my friend asked me today, why dint you blog last year? where have all your entries been? well, the answer is that i have i have not blogged much even i did it is in my draft which i am not going to publish. why? because i think it is just too personal those messages are. there are a lot of things happened last year. just too many and too private that i would rather keep to myself then to anounce to the world.
after such a long time that i dint blog, start to realise that i seem to have deproved a lot in my writing skills. not only that i found nothing to write, but i have also realised that my english is broken and hard to understand.
dint do much of the readings today. even though scheduled to do my PBL this afternoon, as exam is approaching this friday but i just too lazy i think. i just feeling very bored even knowing that there are so many things to be done. sometimes i just wondered, why do i always like to escape from the reality? am i timid? am i just being lazy? i have really no idea...
there are definitely cartain emotions running through my mind but i just couldn't figure out what they are.
sometimes i dun noe why but just felt very irritated. no matter what i do, i just felt wrong...
who cares anyway...
life goes on...
so be it, nitezzz
zk@!