another half year has past, i have changed alot since. things are never the same as before. i could be said to be quite out to most people now. i am living life as usual. i took up water polo and swimming for the past couple of months. i am surprised that i am so passionate about going for the trainings. it has not happened to me for a long time. one thing that i changed is that i am no longer able to reflect on things that i do properly. it is random but i think i am now sucked into the world of pleasure. everything seems to evolved around it. now i am going to start my life again. i used to have crushes on people but now it seems to have disappeared. i no longer know what to look for in a relationship. i am figured that i am now looking for something random something short term than quality. i do not know what has happened but definitely something is wrong. i guessed i should now be looking back and finding back who i was and who i will be and am. the world i am now introduced to has fewer miracles but i do believe that i will find it. may be it will be a month, year or even years who knows. after all i am 19 going 20 this year. i should worry more on my career than anything like this. although i have the urged to fall in love but guess i patience is what i need. i need someone to like who i am and not superficial needs. though no doubt that it plays a part but hope that is not the only thing that the person sees in me.
anyways, still training my water polo..
but at least i found myself able to float for a longer time and able to throw the ball which i am quite proud of.
honestly looking forward to have a nicer body, probably should take care of what i eat but just can't resist on the temptations.
any will keep this update if anything goes.
oh one more thing before i go, i am also frustrated about not able to look for a housemate.
as the saying goes it is easy to be friends but never easy to live with them. guess friends are out of my consideration. so now the problem would be either getting someone from uni or off the streets. geez troublesome.
3 assignments due this week none are done, gonna get screwed by my team mates better get back to work now.
off.