SCHOOL! finally haiz school reopened...most of the schools now are having their common test, well as for me just had my general paper last thursday and that's it no more exams! well, could i consider myself to be lucky? however the worst is yet to come...my common test has not actually been cancelled but it was postponed! it falls on the date 11th of august! argh!!! shit!! this really sux! my lovely august is GONE!!! what is next my promo is not shifted! that means we have only got roughly two months to prepare for our promo! haiz just my luck... well got to go! piles of homework is yet to be done>.< anyway just changed my web key due to unauthorised entry of strangers...okay cya soon^^bb
sincerely
K@|

well, i have been doing my homework as well as learning to play guitar for the entire day! gosh learning guitar is so difficult. fingers are not listening to my command either plucking the wrong string or plucking two keys together>.< such a retard i am...haiz. well, do think that learning piano seems to be easier:D
just wander whether to change room or not it is really a difficult decision to make. the reason i do not want to spell out. but those who know me would have known. anyway doesnt matter la just let it rest at the bottom of my mind first we shall see how it goes...
really ought to buck up school reopens in just 2 days!!!

gp common test today. well as usual the comment for my gp is i think i failed. though it is always said to be inauspicious to say you failed all the times but fact is just fact and is undeniable. well, today's life is just as dull and uninteresting nothing much to say though, just drop by to jot something or my blog would be left empty for somedays. well, school reopening in just two days away! sigh time flies too quickly how i wished i have school days just like my holidays? how i wished i do not need to wake up so early and every day had to catch the bus. oh by the way, homework for the holidays could pile up to the sky cause i have not finished a single yet-.- so long eh and yet not a single has been done. ought to catch up>.<. as for now i am doing my maths hope to finish by tomorrow? good luck to me man!

phew...at last i have finished reconstructing my blog. how was it? do u like this new face lift?? i hope it would be seen to be nicer than the previous one^^.it took me almost a day to manage the codes cause i am a html illiterate>.< know nothing about the codes... that's y i am so tired after i had finished this little blog of mine...anyway nothing interesting has happened just know that school is reopening soon. sigh...well time flies! so fast that it is coming to an end. got to catch up my homework before it is too late...oright nightzZ >.^
oh before i forgot god bless all who are taking their exams *2day?* ^^ good luck my dear seniors!
sincerely
K@|

the outing to sentosa has turned out into a success. though not the whole class came, i do feel that it is enough to be called as a gathering. spent the entire afternoon and evening at the beach. this is the first time i have actually played games with my friends at the beach. it was fun and of course tiring. went to yoshinoya for dinner. the food wasn't that great as to compared to the last one i ate. i think it is mainly because this special outlet here is not nice. no wonder there arent anyone eating there when we went there.
it was really fun and interesting to meet up with your old classmates or rather old friends of yours. i found that it is a completely new feeling as compared to that which we used to seeing each other every day in school.though we know that we are still the old ones we used to be but something inside us have changed. has it due to the fact that we have grown up? or it is just because now that we are living in two different world and not felt close anymore? again this is an unknown to me.
i suddenly felt that seeing each other is not a good thing. it is said to be a bless that we are able to meet each other however life would be just bored and nothing interesting. your life journey would be as dull and uninteresting. you wouldnt have felt you are missing someone. you wouldnt have known the feeling of reunion with your long lost friend...
i really had fun today! i missed all of u! i really don't know when will be the next time we meet and i know it would be long till we meet but i have these photos with me that is enough...may god bless all of u;)
niteZ
sincerely
K@|

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went to school for maths lecture today. wasted my money on taxi fare! why is that so? i was actually waiting at the bus stop at 0730h for the bus, but as the lecture is schedule at 8 and due to the fact that it will take at least 45 mins to reach school, i decided to take a taxi to school. so eventually, i reached school at 0750h. i walked around the school awhile and decided to go to the lecture hall myself to settle down to read my notes instead. it was a pitch dark inside the lecture hall when i arrived. no sign of anyone yet. as i was trained as an ava crew how to prepare the necessary equipments for the teacher to use in the LT, i decided to do it. soon enough when i finished, the bell goes, i looked for my usual sitting and took out my notes. waiting for my teacher's arrival.
5 mins past...
one student peeped in, her expression told me that she thought she was either late or has goen into the wrong LT. but later she walked in and found herself a sit. soon more students came in. their expression was almost the same as the girl.
another 10 mins past...
more students came. the silent of the LT has been broken and now that it has been turned into a lively chat room. still no sign of the teacher...
another min passed...
The LT light was switched off suddenly, here comes the teacher!OMG check the time! 0816h! i would have reached the LT even if i took a bus! argh! cursed myself!
by 0930h teacher released us! the supposedly 3hrs lecture has been shortened to 1.5 hrs! only students who have not gone through the test answers will need to stay back...was it a bless or was it tragic? wasted my taxi fare just to attend a 1.5hr lecture! cursed myself!!!just my luck!

days went through just as normal, nothing interesting has happened or may be i have just missed them or never took notice of them? i had no idea... i felt myself living in nothingness and lost. i ought to plan for my holidays. oh anyway i am just doing it now. is it too late? i wondered... but i think at least i tried.
i thought a person will never be perfect cause nothing is perfect in this world. when there is a bright side there is always a brighther side which thus made the bright side seems to be dark. we are scared of dark thus we will always head to the bright but we must also know the dark or we won't know where is bright. it is just a vicious cycle. just like the question do we have the chicken first or the egg? who knows? god may be...

well those pictures are taken from the car lift at elizabeth hospital...
amazed? it was my first time that i saw a car lift and had taken it. cool i can say ...

something interesting, guess what is it below?

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hehe...went to 'lao bei jing' for lunch today! well, do you consider it to be really a coincident or just merely a trick that our mind plays? ms.chen had just asked if i had been to that restaurant again after the last visit and now that i had visited that place again! well could i say that coincidence is like fate? it simply brings people together...
had my hair cut today, chit chatted with the barber and only to realise how time has flown...it was four years back since my first visit to his shop. four years can neither be said to long nor short. but as i recalled it was also four years ago that i paid my first visit to singapore and stayed here for this long for study. with no friends and a piece of unfamiliar land, i missed home so much. it is considered lucky fo me to have my mum beside me. the ignorant me just live life as normal.
this four years had meant alot to me. the world itself too has drastic changes too. for instance 911 incident has made people not only realise how cruel and evil the terrorist were but also made the people to cherish their time that they spent together. people learnt along as we grow as we move from time to time. it is just how amazing human is.
of course not forgotten the year 2004, it was the year that i graduated and proceeded to the Junior college. it was really a great change to my life. i think it is mainly due to my emotion changes during this stage of my life...last time when i could still remember i graduated from my primary school, though i felt sad and something missing but it did not last long and the emotion was not that strong as to compare to now. i have changed, everything has changed...
talked to one of my SM2 senior who has just came back from china just now, realise how family is so precious. love from family members is so warm and touching. how we missed our home. realise somthing interesting while we talked. i told him that i have been to china shanghai and a few more places while he told me that those places he hasn't even been there before. this is quite strange isn't it? it is just the same for me. i am a malaysian and yet i have not been to any other part of malaysia except selangor, melaka and Johor which i have just been there few days ago. isn't it kind of strange??? besides, poeple seem to hate themselves too. they change themselves just to be like others. chinese change dye their hair to be like european, while european sun-tann their skin to look like chinese. why people behave so strange or is it just the way how people live on? one of the aim of our life? to be like others???
sincerely
Y2K@|

went to JB again, the effort of spending my entire afternoon and evening at johor with an hour each for waiting through and fro the causeway link was indeed not a waste, cause i was glad that my back has fully recovered!
had a buffet lunch at the restaurant named palm garden there. the food was delicious! it reminded me of U-village food and i really missed it...
when came back to singapore, we had dinner at forum. while i had my dinner there i was listening to what my father and his friend's father of age +-70 chit chatting. it was indeed a pleasure hearing what elders say. you could learn alot of things within...
life is like a chessboard. who is your opponent? well, it is everyone. true friends of yours of course would put colours to your chess, while you enemy would be the one who try every single way to not actually conquer your chess to make them the winner but to destroy your beautiful chess. you could never predict what the ending is and what moves your opponent going to put, how your chess is going to end like. simply anything could happen to your chess. different moves you put could produce different outcome. no one can predict what comes next? it is full of mysteries? well, what should we do? counter against what your opponent's move is that is what we should do...

went to Johor Bahru today. we took my father's friend mpv there. it is really a cool MPV. i was impressed by its cool meter reading board! it is not only digitalised but it is also 3D with blue lighting! i have taken pics of it. it is just below this. it is the first time that i have been to JB. as a malaysian for 16 years and it is really ashame of me not having visited to JB once. besides it is also my first time crossing the first link brige. the traffic here is indeed more terrible than the one which i have usually taken to go back to malaysia. got stuck in the traffic jam for an hour! my father's friend told me that it was already considered good. good??? oh my goodness how bad can this get? i heard that last time when he used this link it took him almost 3 hours to get pass. 3 hours? heck! what a terrible thing to imagine...phew suddenly felt myself to be so lucky...
oh yes! went to JB today is because i had to have back treatment... it was not a painful experience but yet it is really effective! i am now feeling much better. in fact i felt i am completely healed! well anyway, the man, steven told me to return tomorrow to do a check up again, so be it...

3D meter board!!

honda elysion! nice car man!

nothing to write much today just dropping by to tell that i went to AVA camp today...
it was really fun! especially the water game that we had planned. it turned out quite well i can say. besides the camp itself it is also the formal ceremony of the J2 seniors stepping down. like i had said i wanted to become the president of AVA. however...
well anyone would have already know by now for i have used the word 'however'...
yes indeed again failed i had. instead of becoming the president of AVA i had become the vice president. well, since this is teacher's decision, i think that they must have their reason for doing it. nothing much i can do. i told myself rather being sad why not thought of myself being fortunate to have been in the Exco and being a vice president, and be glad for what i have?
sincerely
K@|

where are we heading?brighther future? or just a halucination?

"is today's vegetables fresh? oh no there is a worm! it is spoilt! no it is not fresh! i won't buy it..."

persumably, this is what a housewife would have said during the past...

"is today's vegetables fresh? oh yes! i saw holes! they are indeed fresh with no pesticides added! i will buy it..."

this is what usually happens now...

we always say that we are now moving towards a brighther future, well indeed we have done it however is it really that bright?
scientist has discovered ways to modify food genes to provide us with tastier food and food which are more lasting. but how many would really want to take the risk to try? yes may be really there are really such brave beings give it a try. however, is genetically modified food harmless to us? this is a question that alot of people has argued about. from normal people like us to the government to the scientist.
yes indeed food production has become better, food quality has become better. however is it harmful to us is still an unknown...
technology is so advanced that had made the people suspect whether is it true...

think

failed, i have...
my plan of going for a swim has been ruined. none! exactly none! i mean really not a single one has agreed to go for a swim with me...
failed, i have. failed, i have...

memories of my secondary school life flooded my mind, remembering the time i spent together with my old classmates? i had indeed regretted much that i really did not cherish the days we spent with each other. but no it was already too late. what has been done is done what is in the future is yet a mistery, a question mark? i should have brought myself forward to looking at the future ahead and not the past but again i can't control my emotions...

think about my past, make me sad
think about my future, make me miserable
think about now, i am dead...

think about my friends, they have left
think about my parents, they are wroking
think about people, they are strangers...

so who should i think?
argh! forget it! sleep...zZZ

little observation

I am in misery...
I have no idea when has i let my depression overtook me? But indeed it has...
small observation for today--->
it was just a usual trip back to school during the holidays. i was on the bus enjoying TV mobile and the air-condition. two high pitch voices distracted me. it was a little boy and little girl.

they shouted :"whee-eui, whee-eui."

it was as if they were on a roller coaster. just then i realised that the reason for them doing that is because of the road is not flat. though it was only a slightness bumpy yet they had discovered. i am whom one of the regular pessenger of the bus, one of whom drove pass the road for so many times and yet it was a total new discovery to me! i was just thinking is it because when people get older they tends to take things for granted? when people get older are they not concern for the minor things in this world anymore? or has i just been the only one who did not realise it? i had really no idea??

Went to school today is partly for study another main task for me to accomplish is to make my AVA Exco interview a succesful one. i have failed my SLO interview and i could not afford to have failed this too. this interview meant alot to me. a teacher has asked me this question: " why do you want to be the president of AVA? " from the bottom of my heart i have really no clue at all! i tried to answer: " the only thing that motivates me towards wanting to be the president is that i wanted lead! i wanted to be just like other leaders my friends did my seniors did! " a firm and interesting magical as i can say comment was given by the teacher " Well, why not tell me the truth and cut out the PAP speech? " it shocked me indeed! i smiled...
erm can i just keep my answer a secret? tyz

sincerely
Ka|;)

pre u

pre-u seminar has come and gone like a wind that blows and stops. my heart has yet to recover from the atmosphere of the pre-u seminar night. i was so touched and i have no idea why but my heart has indeed been influenced by the people in the pre-u sem.
through this pre-u seminar i have learnt alot of things. life lesson? as well as technical skills from avac. if i ever recalled what is the main thing that i remembered for the pre-u sem i would have said the trip to schl and the time that we must be awake. almost everyday we have to wake up 5.30 in the morning. brushed up prepared and nxt thing is stand by the road to wait for a taxi! we have to take taxi to school every morning.y? cos we will be late which we can't afford to be. it was a fortune that there are three of us, me, afi and yu hang, so the expenditure on trip to school was not that bad. through the pre-u sem we really got to know each other alot. we worked with each other faced each other day and night. this time we got to work with IT people. I am so glad to have had this opportunity to know my senior! i have not actually met up with them or even not ever talked to them before. we are like strangers living under the same roof but has never met. it is kind of irony isnt it? how big this campus of mine is? not a big at all! but yet you could have not met any of them. or may be you did! but you did not care...
through this seminar the one and only one senior i have met is timothy. he is a helpful and cheerful guy. i have problem with my programming. and upon request to help out he did not reject. he helped me to solve my errors and thought me new commands. i was so glad that he could help me out! i really need to buck up my programming or i will end up somewhere which i do not even dare to spare a thought of...things has indeed gone quite well for my LT and auditorium. as for others well i have doubts. one of the most serious case was the amplifire spoilt! this was stunning news to us cos they have no choice but have to change LT. haiz...
but i think they have indeed managed well with this emergency situation. congrats to them...

me and AVA and IT members

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little memories

Hi there! it was indeed a year since i have updated this little blog of mine.
through these days i have been busy with my O's and of course preparing for my new life to JC...
did i tell u i have been qualified to go JC? yar indeed i am. wat's more i am now in jurong junior college
attended my first three months in jj in art stream. took up geography, mother tounge a, economics and maths c.
it was really fun for the first three months. i have done something which i had never done in my life. that is SKIP class!!! not only that can you skip ur classes without being scolded and punished, the results do not matter you as well! This is why three-month-course i found it to be so fun! besides, the orientation was great too. you get your mood swing from ends to ends. you would be so glad to have known many new friends but on the other hand you would also be so sad and depress to have to leave them. it is either you leave them or they leave you. people come and go. you get to know them get to meet up with them hang out with them but in the end they might just leave you. why? this is because they have just left the campus you are now in and study in a different one. what i think leaves behind for us is the memory of the first three months we spent together. the shortest yet i found it to be the most meaningful piece of memory in my life.